But I am a little jealous of the people who are bursting at the seams with joy at the thought of the season: people that get all starry eyed at putting up the tree, love the lights, the decorations, the singing, the wrapping, the cheesiness, the MAGIC {jazz hands}. I guess it's somehow related to being an atheist (seeing as it's generally celebrated as a Jesus birthday party [though it is historically a secular holiday. Oh, I will not be getting into that here. But if you want to know more about my heathen beliefs: FisheswithFeet]) but I think there's something more than that for most people. I loved it when I was a kid, and I was (unknowingly) an atheist then, as well. I guess it was just the presents and I was a greedy little punk? And now that I live a life where I pretty much buy myself whatever shit I want I'm just a lazy little punk? Oh, this is a bit more of a depressing character sketch than I'd considered.
Anyhow, I'm hoping that when I have kids someday I will feel a little bit of that magic again, and maybe won't hate the thought of needing to buy gifts, and you know, do a lot of shit and then clean up a lot of shit afterwards (sidenote: I still haven't put all the halloween decorations away and will probably leave that sweet life-size zombie family poster in my garage forever).
I appear to be painting myself in a terrible light here. Part of my holiday indifference is that I really appreciate thoughtful gifts and generally fail at procuring and distributing said thoughtful gifts in a timely manner for Christmas so I'm disappointed in myself and the stupid Onion book and Phillies hat I buy Brad every year (in my defense, he always wears it and manages to lose it before the next Christmas) (Also, I bought the same Phillies hat for my boyfriend during college, which takes it to the next level of uncreative) (non-creative?) (Oh mah gah with the parentheses, I think I need parentheses rehab). I feel guilty when I get thoughtful gifts and annoyed when I get shitty gifts* and also, don't care.
There was one year that we got a tree and had a little spirit. 2006. Here is some fantastic evidence:
Anyway, here is the list of what is going to be putting the joy in my heart during the most wonderful time of the year, this year:
- 3 weeks off from work ( I KNOW! I'M SORRY! I HATE ME TOO!)
- Watching a shitload of The Wire
- Good Old War at the TLA
- finishing up this ABA1 class (it's not horrible but enough already, school addiction.)
- The Districts at Tellus 360 (fuckin yeah! Dec 21st! You should come! And sleep over my house!)
- Not going to see the fucking Nutcracker at The Academy of Music (my mother's strange addiction, so boring the 11th time and every time after that)
- Christmas Eve Eve where all the coolest people gather to get kicked out of McGillan's and like it.
- Laying on my ass and day drinking on Christmas.
*Once my mother bought me a boat when I was a sophomore in college, living in (landlocked!) State College. Yes, I said boat. A really, really old mustard colored boat that got passed by a sailboat the one time we took it out. That I couldn't tow and had nowhere to store. Also, I didn't even have a car at the time. And one year she bought my sister a full set of living room furniture and I got a pair of $30 boots from Target and her response was "It's not your year". The boat year had apparently been "my year". Christmas has always been different for me, but it makes a good story, so I'm not complaining! Oh, Linda, keepin' it fresh.
lol. I love this post.
ReplyDeleteIf your looking for a little end of the year spirit, just do what the pagans do... light a big bonfire, drink some warm alcoholic beverages and get pumped that the daylight gets a little longer every day from here on out. :)
Haha, yes! Drinking around a bonfire sounds like a perfect tradition! And I cannot wait for more light, it's truly something to celebrate.
DeleteI totally agree with you. I am jealous (and a little thrown off) of people who are bursting at the seams about Christmas. It just feels like a lot of work. I've been thinking about creating my own traditions with Jeff lately - a relaxing week in Palm Springs sounds good :) See you on Christmas Eve Eve.
ReplyDeletei love you.
ReplyDeleteThe post script at the bottom was my favorite part of that post... hilarious. I just found your blog, nice work!
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